Sji-sjab had never been better, well sorta. Since otc pop i’ve devoted my time (really a huge chunk of it) to sji-sjab. It really took priority the entire duration and i’m proud to say that i really made the best out of it. The camps, trainings, etc that i had attended might have its down times, but it sure had its fair share of rewards. Working with scorpio is definitely one of the most rewarding sjab experience i had. I’ll try not to compare these people with Gemini because both’s good but in a way, i feel really close to scorpio with all the tight partnerships. Well there are some attempts of reunions with them, not exactly successful but it’s okay. I do hope they continue to hang out and do things together because four years shouldn’t just go poof cos of graduation. Let all the talks that graduation split people up become just a myth. Well i don’t really know how well the unit is doing now, or whether we are capable of getting top placings for the coming comps now. Honestly, i’m worried and guilty. No doubt i’m responsible for inducting great leadership but i left just right at the start of cancer’s stepping up. I’m guilty for not being able to guide and teach them like how i devoted my time to scorpio. I really gave scorpio a thousand and ten percent of what i can give, yet i’m not able to follow up with such a masterful wield of my energy to the succeeding batch. I do hope there are new and incoming officers/officer trainees who are able to take over me and be their mentor. For what i’m not able to give, i do hope that there will be people present to share the load. The entire sji-sjab journey this year had been filled with angst, bitterness, some tears, loads and loads of joy. There are times when i get really irritated with people for not executing their rightful duties well and there are times when i get annoyed with myself for being such a fuck. But all’s over now, and i’m reflective about the past. In years to come, i will be able to share my experience with all future batches. I’m convicted to really try and devote maximum time to sji-sjab right after ns, hopefully i can stay with this promise.
The people that i’d deemed to be close friends really come under great scrutiny before i put my love and trust and time in them. Sounds like a good deal of investment. Well i’m glad that over the time i had spent in the unit, i managed to reap two fucking good friends out of sji-sjab, mr m and mr k. Putting aside moments of silence, awkwardness and mild annoyance, i’ve really got myself two great friends. A large part of this year was spent ‘enjoying life’ with mr m. Watching movies, venturing town, emotional heartfelt conversations and angst-filled condemnation of some people is like part of my routine for a rather long duration. I shall try not to mention the pity that it had been since when but it’s been a real good period of my life. Happy is the simplest word i can use to describe it. I enjoyed myself and i grew clearer of myself, my feelings, thoughts, dreams and almost everything. Mr k on the other hand is my personal counsellor and emotional first aider. Those times that i feel fucking pissed and everything bad, he’s always there to put a direct pressure on the painful bleeding. I’m really comforted to know the very least that at least someone is so capable of being a listening ear. Despite what i’m saying might seem to be just arbitrary, i’m reciprocated with an equal sense of randomness. Haha. I do hope to continue the love and care that we showered each other with. I like the feeling of being cherished, for cherish always is a better word than perish.
School had been quite annoying these two years. Firstly, because I HATE ACJC. Secondly, still because I HATE ACJC. Thirdly and finally, ultimately because I HATE ACJC. Actually i don’t even remember why i dislike ac already. The original reason had evolved into a sorta routine and habit. It’s a habit of criticising and most definitely not being part of the ‘ac culture’. I’ll be most glad if anyone called me a failed acsian, because i never strived to be one. Tenacity, passion, blah blah blah... all of these seem to be too idealistic for me. I for once will rather be a humble servant leader, working and praying whenever i can. But amidst all of these disdain i had for ac, i’m glad to have a close knitted group of friends i can hang out with. Ms s, ms c and ms j (NO! NOT MS JAY). Haha there are times i get really bitchy and annoyed or even angry with some of them, but to know that , there are people suffering together with me while i study what seem like the most difficult subject in the a levels is just pure joy. Haha this statement sounds like something a complete weirdo will say! Haha ms s, stop wasting your life away please! You have a great future you just have to cherish your time well and quit doing wuliao things! Ms c, continue working hard and i’m sure you will reap all that you’ve sown in due course. Ms j, you’re a smart and hardworking girl, keep in touch my dear friend since primary three! Of course other than the cliters, the artists are there to support me too! Ms t! Goodness you’re such a pig, thanks for giving me reminders on art, food, work, etc. The third term cooped up in the clay and art room was probably the toughest period of my school days, everyday, more than three quarters of my time is spent working on art. No doubt my skills had improved by leaps and bounds but the psychological stress of the deadline is really a pressure cooker. The artists who were there to show their support as we suffer together, ms t, ms q and ms s! Haha, thanks for the food, food for thought and incessant reminders on what i have to do to get a. We’ll go screw that lowtzechieg upside down if we don’t get our a, even if we have to hunt her down in the states. I think some teachers that deserve some mention’s mr d, ms a and lls. They really gave good technical advice and i really learnt some principles of life from them. :D i once said that it’s a gigantic irony that i go to school, just to learn nothing. That was true in the past, but i’m glad that i really tried my best to absorb important life lessons from them.
AND HOW CAN I FORGET ms r. My dear jiemei who is always there on missed call and smses. Thanks a one thousand billion trillion for being there always scolding me reminding me that i have more important things to do other than obsessing over fish and qad, even though i enjoy indulging in them. Ms r, you’ll be remembered greatly! Haha and those people from the scgs community ms p and ms d, thanks for the company! I think its these random conversations online that makes life somewhat more colourful. A little purple and blue here and there really adds entertainment to my conversation history when i have to work on some unimportant art essay.
AND HOW CAN I EVER FORGET my dear p3. Words unspoken, we know, but when spoken we glow. Mr y don’t be too bothered by how mr a and i had moved into and other chapter of our lives because sooner or later, you’ll transition into that part too. But really take care of your life and health. Your lungs won’t be able to withstand all the fumes that you inhaled so please quit it. And my condolences to the passing away of your loved one, stay strong for yourself and those around you k! Mr a enlistment and birthday’s coming up real quickly! Wahahahahaha, i look forward to the day when you enlist so i have a mutual friend to share my experiences with! Your birthday’s approaching in FIVE DAYS TIME goodness, better meet up! :D
Haha, that’s all. No pictures, no photos. hny!
rOy.
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